rebirth

i sit,
waiting. for change.
blaming myself for
the way things
are
or, rather,
the way
they used to
be.

please.
leave my poor
body and my soul,
alone. they
ache
underneath your
massive, tantalizing,
and heavy
weight.

tempting.
dizzyingly so.
your stench smells
so putridly
sweet.
i knew you
so long ago.
and yet, like
new you are
reborn.